Both BG and SP have read my musings and said, "that should be published..."I suspect they feel that way more because they know me and can hear my voice in the words than because of any great skill on my part. But I thought I'd go public anyhow. Several blogs out there have helped me to feel less isolated. Maybe I can give back and gain some insight while I'm at it.
There's a lot to mull over, after all. Submission can be difficult to reconcile with what you thought you knew about yourself. Fortunately, as a little bundle of contradictions, I concluded early that there's nothing inherently wrong with having many opposing aspects to your nature. It's wrangling them into a cohesive unit that's the challenge. So when I discovered my submission, I was less bothered by the nature of the additional facet than I was by the fact that it meant I had to re-arrange the entire collage yet again.
It's been worth it, though. Not only am I loving the ride, I'm much calmer and feel more centered than I have for a number of years.
SP notes that I seem much more engaged and connected to being alive.
I think it's because I feel integrated again. It's distracting when you know something is out of whack but have no idea what it is!